Humiliation and misunderstandings

First of all, i want to apologize to my roommate, Suting . for not being a good roommate, blogging bout her , which is all a huge miscommunication and misunderstanding between us.I'm very sorry for that, and i should've trust you when they came to me, im very sorry.);

and then i'm gonna tell what happen now, 

as i went home, had my dinner and my housemate knocks the door, asking me, who is the last one who went out yesterday, 

i said, 'um, wait. lemme think, oh its suting i think, why?'

them 'the lights and heaters are not switched off in the toilet and bathroom, '

me ' oh, because she is late today, i will tell her later.'

them ' okay, uh, can you tell you boyf not to come over this often, you know, dajie (suting) dont know what are you guys doing and she....(blablabla goes here cause he pronounced it quite vague.).

me ' okay'

AFTER THAT IN MSN 

' voon, about your boyf thing, its not only about dajie, you as a girl. you think in dajie's shoe,no privacy. ........(blablabla.ive forgotten but eventually they related everything back to my roommate.=.= .) - from my housemate.

and im really pissed when i saw the 'you as a girl' part, wtf is wrong with you guys? you dont have any rights to judge me okay. I am me. I do what i want and if i didnt bother you, i dont! i did think in Suting's shoe , THAT'S WHY, i asked before letting any1 come over. and she knows what are we doing. 

the next thing i was thinking, why dont suting tell me if its not cool to her?

arent we best friend? aren't she suppose to tell me INSTEAD of telling them?

then my imaginations start to runaround. loads of why surrounded me.

then, suting came back, 

' youre not cool with my boyf coming over?'

' no its cool, but not too often'

'then why dont you tell me instead of telling them(housemates) bout it?'

'i didnt tell them!' and theres an awkward silence and she went out of the room,

i became quite angry then i started to ask my friend am i going too much or what,

after that she came back in, asked me what have they told me.

then for out of nowhere my tears started to roll, i feeel humiliated, been told by guys, someone who i dont know and they actually have problem with me before all these shits happened. and started to talk with suting, 

well, we manage to tell out every misunderstanding and miscommunication in the past but still, 

i still feel humiliated, from the housemates. what the hell is wrong with you guys seriously. okay sometimes its my fault, for not cleaning the stuff right after you guys told me, my apologize, but that doesnt mean that you can judge me? for the toilet bowl its always dirty full of dried urine, did i mention a single thing to you guys as you guys complain always? your friend, came,stay and dirty the place, did i say a shit about it? DID I? 

at least all of my friend who came in, they kept our things well, and i mean ALL OF THEM THAT CAME TO MY HOUSE BEFORE, they never dirty the house,so is that a problem for you? oh do you want me to pay you every single time my friends come over to stay? oh B is coming, i should start asking my mom for money. Im not poor that i couldnt pay but if you want to, I WILL PAY. remember your cousins came and stay over? for 2 weeks? 3 or 4 of them?did you pay? see, its the same

its unfair to judge me, and you have no right to. i won't give any shits to you guys anymore, i;ll do what i do and thats all, spread rumours about me, curse me or whatever, I DON'T CARE. you'll be your childish freak, playing the game yourself, and i'll be ToiYeeVoon.